MEDICAL STUDENT

Hiding Behind the Pages

HIDING BEHIND THE PAGES: Losing One’s Self
Oh how far he had fallen! He could not even believe he had gotten to this juncture. It was unfathomable how things had taken such a turn in his life. If only turning back the hands of time were a possibility – sadly, it was not even a reality.
When was this last time he spoke with his family, those who had played remarkable roles in making him who he was this day? When was the last time he went to church or studied the Scriptures? When was the last time he hung out with friends (he was not even certain he still had people he could call such)? It was truly lonely at the top.
Perplexing it was, how he had taken this long to come to the realization of his situation. Could he not recall those times? All those times he ignored calls from his family because their conversations would simply take too long – there was no time to spare. Those times the church members were at his door and the resounding knocks meant nothing to him. He was too busy reading for those tests, and they always came for the same thing – to encourage him to find time for fellowship. Even those times he kept her waiting for hours and would eventually not show up, bailing out on plans they had made earlier. Yes, their relationship could have blossomed into something beautiful, but he just could not find the time for her amidst all the books to read and lectures to attend. He had even not found the time to develop his undoubtedly melodious voice that moved the crowd whenever he sang. And eventually, as you would expect, the church members stopped knocking, that girl stopped waiting and, of course, he stopped singing.
Currently in 400level in the Department of Medicine and Surgery, he was known for all-round academic excellence. Even in his preclinical days, he won the prestigious Gamaliel Onosode award and he had been remarkably consistent. Who would say they were surprised? He had sacrificed so much to break those unbroken records and thus set new ones. However, was it all worth it? Was it all worth the glaring fact that he seemed to be obliterated from the minds of many?
Nothing is worth losing yourself over. Nothing is worth losing connection with your faith. Nothing is worth waking up to the cold reality that you have no true friends. As medical students, it is easy to spend so much time reading our books and neglect various aspects of our lives that are imperative in making us who we are. At present, many of us cannot recall the last time we did that thing that genuinely makes us happy and is truly liberating. From varied cognitive talents to mad football skills, we have been blessed with so much inside of us that we cannot afford to make redundant.
It is easy to lose friends, especially those not on the same path as us. Losing sight of relationships, our spiritual life and extracurricular activities is a possibility, and currently a reality for many. Understanding that medical school is one path on one’s life’s journey is important.
So with all these said, I urge you not to lose those things that make you unique; those people that put smiles on your face; or lose sight of your values and priorities. Above all, do not lose yourself hiding behind the pages of those books.

Jaachimma Oluwabunmi Nwagbara

Yes you saw the middle name right. She is Igbo by tribe, from Abia state (having a Yoruba mother). She was born and brought up in Kaduna state and therefore you can say she has been exposed to the three major Nigerian cultures. It gets people fascinated. She is a third year medical student at the University of Ibadan, Oyo state. Before that she attended a few schools, all in Kaduna where she lives, which include, Challawa Nursery, Primary and Secondary School where she got her nursery education, Kingdom Heritage Model School where she attained primary education and the prestigious Zamani College, a school that shaped the person she is now, taught her how to dream big and made her realize she could achieve set goals and of course where she attained her secondary education. Getting into the university took a lot of hard work, discipline, perseverance and of course support especially from her loving mother and my ever helpful teachers. "Studying Medicine is quite demanding, especially if you are one who hates failure and so it is a daily struggle to get through every stage and excel as you get through. I am very much excited to share my journey. I trust it would be insightful!" says Jaachimma.

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2 Comments

  1. Jaachi…thank you for this wonderful piece…
    It is actually very difficult keeping up with other aspects of life while studying a course like medicine , you’ll find out that the only people you really relate with are medical students, even those friends you made in 100 level are soon forgotten, especially for those not staying on campus . the only thing that bothers your mind always is your academics….. It can be really depressing , so many incomplete WhatsApp chats, several complaints from different quarters of not keeping in touch .
    And I think the best I’ve done for myself is attending my family like fellowship and picking up my phone to call whenever the thought of someone close to me crosses my mind……pls, let us try to always keep in touch.
    About the sports thing…..Chinedu pls help my solution.. Lol

  2. ‘It is easy to lose friends, especially those not on the same path as us…’
    You are right.
    And I am guilty.
    This is good writing. Well done.

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